a current dream

I'm standing on an embankment with about 10 to 12 other people close by and others that are farther away and we are watching the wicked current in the water where the water goes under the large bridge and leads into the river. There are people going by in the water and they look like they are dead,they just jumped in where the water was calmer and ended up in the current and I look at everyone that are watching them and they are just emotionless and I'm screaming at them, "how can you just stand there and do nothing!!???"  But no one reacts, they just keep watching it without concern or without thought to help them. It makes me feel so helpless and the thought crosses my mind that they think I should be like that too but I just can't. There is an urge inside of me telling me to do something, anything to try to help, it's better than standing there watching and getting ready to jump in. All of a sudden a lady holding up a baby that I know, passes by in front of us and she's almost drowning and she's saying help me but still no one reacts. I can't help it anymore, I have to do something!! I start going down the embankment trying to get to the slippery rocks and everyone is screaming at me," You're crazy!!! Don't go down there, You can't help them, leave them alone !!!" but without thinking about it I continue on and keep my eyes on that lady with the baby in her hands and the current is so bad that it isn't going in one direction but swirling viciously. It sends her back my way and with sure footing, knowing that I can do it but not caring if I can't, I step unto the slippery rocks and I bend over and grab a hold of her wrist and with all my strength I lift her and the baby out of the water. I bring them up on the embankment and when I put them down, they turn into cats, an adult cat and a kitten. They are dark grey in color and they are not doing well. They are not breathing so I give the kitten to my husband and tell him to resuscitate it while I look after the adult cat. I start pushing on it's stomach to pump the water out of the cat while I keep watch of my husband to make sure  he is doing  the same. Water starts coming out of their mouths and they start moving and I immediately start feeling guilty for having rescued them because they are suffering so and I think maybe they were better off drowning. I put them back in the water without thinking what I'm doing and then I think "What am I doing???, maybe they'll recover!!!" I grab them back out of the water and pull them back up. I wake up disturbed about this dream.

I pray and ask God for the interpretation.


There are people standing around not knowing what they are doing. They are watching the flow of the current in the world and even in the churches and wanting to go with it because it is easier. Not really questioning if it's what God wants or not. It's just where everyone is going and if everyone is going there it must be right, that is what they believe, and there is nothing you can do about it. so they jump in and they are dead but they think they are alive. The observers are seeing it but think they are helpless to do anything about it because the devil is too strong so they don't even try or even think about trying. Fear keeps them back and they deny their emotions because they think it is useless to have them as they believe emotions are not from God. They also think that maybe they should be doing the same because they are not trusting themselves to hear from God for themselves but believing what is being presented before them. They are deceived.
The observers don't want you to help anyone because it will be going against "the current" and that's wrong in their eyes. They think you are not right with God, or not hearing from God, but you see it so clearly that if they would just reach out, if they would just open their eyes and see what they are capable of and what is true, they could help someone too. If they would just be willing to go against "the current", to think for themselves, they could save lives and maybe calm the waters a bit.

When you pull someone out of the devil's hands they may suffer with the confusion from wanting to stay where they are comfortable or turning to God, but we shouldn't let go of them and send them back on their way but keep them by being there for them and praying them through, but even then it is their choice whether they go back in the current or go against it, but don't ever stop fighting for them.

God has shown me that when I dream of cats, they represent Him or His nature. So you see, someone may be in satan's hands but when you pull them out they can turn into His nature.

You may be afaid to jump out and take a chance on getting hurt but it's so important to do it and chances are someone may be on the embankment and may even try to trip you because they so believe you are doing wrong.  God says there is no greater love than just putting yourself out there, not thinking about your life but the life you are about to save. Stop fearing! or should I say, stop thinking about yourself so much and just concentrate on the person that is drowning. You have to let that urge take you, don't stop your emotions, God has given them to you for a reason. You may be wrong sometimes and that's ok. God doesn't love you less just because you do something wrong. He is proud of you for stepping out. He doesn't love you more because you do something right either, but do what you are called to do!

Is there sin in the churches???

I just have so much going through my mind I need to start blogging about it. I'm nobody special, I'm not a scholar or anything close to that but I do believe the holy spirit shows me things.  I'm just a common person with common problems that I need to sort out like everyone else. I don't claim to be perfect by far. I do sin but I try to do my best at not sinning and with what I know.  So I thought I'd start this blog to see if there is other people who go through what I go through or see what I see. I'm sure there are but I'm finding it hard to find them.
There are things that are not talked about in the church. It's all hush hush. I need to be real!!! So if you don't like controversial things, I would suggest you leave my page right now. I'm not here to be nice so don't expect niceness here, I'm not about niceness and I'm not about religion, I'm about truth so don't continue on if you can't take the truth. I love truth even if it hurts me right to the tip of my toes!  I'm ranting not teaching, or am I? I want to say what isn't being said. I'm tired of a lot of the things I see going on in the churches. With the different attitudes, lack of commitment, lack of compassion for other people, lack of repentance, indifference's, boredom, jealousies, unforgiveness, etc. etc. Oh I forgot the big one JUDGEMENT. Who are you to judge your brother? The bible says (and I'm NOT going to find the scripture for you where it says it, find your OWN scripture if you can't remember what the bible says)  that we are to judge the sin not the sinner but there is a lot of judging the sinner and a lot of looking down your nose at your brothers and sisters in Christ in the church and then you wonder why people aren't coming to church! HELLO!!! DO YOU HEAR ME??..... Why would anyone want to come to church??? I wonder why I go to church sometimes and I've been going to church for 14 years. We have to step it up and be who we are called to be. The lack of attendance, jealousies, backstabbing,boredom, etc. has to stop!! We don't want the only difference to be is that you can talk about Jesus there and I do believe that some of the sinners have more respect for Jesus than the people in the churches!!. Now I may be a bit dumb but you would think if Jesus is there amongst us it would be a bit different but it's not. So why is everyone acting like they are great???  Oh look at me, I'm so perfect, I have no sin, well none that I'll admit to anyway!! And if I do, I'll never repent of it, I'm saved by grace!!! It's pathetic. No wonder Jesus was happy to eat with sinners!!!
 The very nature of Jesus is based on Faith, grace and repentance. You can't have one without the others!  We are saved by faith when we believe through His grace by repenting of our sins. That means turning away from your sins. Does that only mean you only do that one time when you are first saved?? That is repent of your sins??  Well of course not, it's an on going thing!
  How often do you ask yourself if you are doing something that is grieving the holy spirit? Do you even care? I know I am preaching hard here but I believe there are a lot of people that need to hear some hard preaching! The sad thing is that if you read this far, you are probably not the one who needs it because the other ones already exited this page.