Making of “Heart Song”

 

Welcome to My World of Painting

I began painting seriously during COVID, during one of the loneliest times of my life. At the time, I was working at a seniors boarding home and had to stay isolated to avoid bringing the virus to them. My routine was limited to work and occasional grocery trip, beyond that, I was stuck at home, staring at four walls that seemed to close in on me.

I’m not much of a phone talker, so even that wasn’t appealing. The loneliness became overwhelming, and I felt like I was on the verge of losing my mind. Desperate for something to fill my time and keep me grounded, I searched for an outlet, something that would help me stay sane.

For some reason, painting came to mind. I had dabbled in it before but never felt confident enough to continue. Self-doubt had always held me back. But this time, with more life experience and a newfound determination to overcome my low self-esteem, I made up my mind: I was going to succeed.

I had once heard that there are angels assigned to help us, but many remain “unemployed”simply waiting to be called upon. That idea stuck with me, and I decided to hire a team of them to guide me in my painting. Around the same time, I had been following Demitra Milan, who often spoke about finding her painting voice. I didn’t fully understand what that meant, but I was determined to find mine.

I started gathering inspiration, asking myself: What do I love? Who am I? What needs to come out of me? I quieted my soul and listened. The world had become a bleak, dreary place, filled with uncertainty, and I needed to create beauty and lightheartedness, not just for myself, but for others.

I focused on what brought me joy: faces, hearts, pearls, doves, butterflies, gems, roses, and romantic, spiritual themes. But I didn’t want my art to be too overtly romantic. I needed something to balance it. That’s when my unique style, Ethereal Eclectic Romanticism, was born. I’ve never found another artist with my exact style, and that makes it even more special to me.

I love the dreamy essence of spirit, the softness of romanticism, but I also crave an eclectic touch, something unexpected. That’s why I incorporate geometric patterns to contrast the delicate elements. The combination creates harmony: dreamy yet structured, romantic yet grounded.

My color choices are just as intentional. I’m drawn to Clear Spring colors, vibrant yet fresh, full of energy and light. After much trial and error, I realized that these colors also suit me personally. With my neutral skin tone and a slight warm undertone, I can wear shades from multiple seasons, Summer, Winter, Spring, and Autumn, but Spring tones are my absolute favorite. They bring me joy, and I use them not only in my paintings but also in my decor.

Art has given me purpose, joy, and healing. It has transformed my loneliness into something beautiful. And through my paintings, I hope to share that beauty with others.

This is my beginning stage of “Heart Song” 

I named it “Heart Song” because that is what it is. 

It’s what I found that was in me. It’s my very essence at the core of my being. It’s what makes me…me. 

I made a source for my painting and put a grid on it and then a grid on my canvas. I drew it out and put everything in place. You don’t have to follow your source exactly. Let the paint lead you. Look at it and see what it needs. 

Here are some steps to the finished painting. You will see it changed a few times. 

I added base colours to everything next. Getting the colours in the right place is key. 

I then started refining the colours, brightening or darkening accordingly. I also started honing in on details. 

Next I started shading and refining the face, hands and doves. I added more details to the flowers and made them drip. I added med the pearls which I love in a lot of my paintings. The eclectic shapes started shaping up. 

I continued adjusting and working on the face and doves as those are the focus of the paintings. 

Something bothered me about the lower half of the painting and so I started working in shape of the torso and arm. It was out of proportion and so I had to figure out a way to make it work. 

I refined and adjusted until it looked in proportion with the head. I also wanted the light to shine in a certain colour and kept tweaking the colours around the halo. 

I refined the body even more to get proportions more accurately. I then needed to figure out what I would have her wear. I wanted her to be classy looking but still sensual. Details were added to the pearls. 

I opted for painting a lace dress. I refined the face even more until I had better face proportions. I then looked online for a nice pair of earrings and painted them. I painted more details in the flowers and dark area. I added tiny flowers to the blue flowing veil. 

I next honed in on the blowing in the breeze ribbon. Added still more details to the flowers and drips. Also refined some more of the background. 

The painting was finally starting to come together. 

The finishing touches are always the most exciting. Figuring out what to place in her hand, making the different coloured pearls pop, adding the lattice work in the background as a last minute decision, doing the fine lace detail around the halo, adding lines and touches of gold and the finally getting to sign my finished piece! 

I like to add poetry for my paintings as well. In this piece it describes from where I’ve been to where I am now. 

It shows what I had to suffer to get what I have now. It did not come easy. 

The Answer Within

Why does she see the beauty—

Is it all she’s ever known?

Or has she faced the shadows,

The cracks, the thorns, the stone?

Has she seen the bad, the unclean,

The bitter taste of loss?

Was life unkind to break her,

Or to teach her what it cost?

Was her innocence stolen too early,

To leave her broken, torn?

Or was it meant to shape her heart—

To feel what others mourn?

Did the world strip away her trust,

To fill her soul with pain,

Or mold her into tenderness

For those who felt the same?

Was she bullied just to knock her down,

To make her rise once more?

Was shame a cloak to weigh her down

Or strength she learned to store?

Why did life seem to hate her so—

Was it envy for her grace?

Did it sense the fire she carried,

The courage it couldn’t erase?

Did it know, beneath the quiet,

A voice was whispering clear—

You are not a quitter, love,

You’re stronger than your fear.

Did she hide behind a fragile mask,

Afraid to show her tears?

Did life grow too cruel for her gentle heart,

Trying to silence the light she steers?

Yet she did not break—she only bent,

Her spirit held its ground.

She wore her scars like battle marks,

Proof she was never bound.

For beauty bloomed in cracks of pain,

In places torn apart.

The scars she bore became her art—

A map of her healing heart.

She rose because she chose to rise,

To own both ache and grace.

For even when life burned her down,

She found beauty in that space.

I hope you enjoyed the making of “Heart Song” 

It was my pleasure to create it and share it for everyone to see and hopefully learn how your worse night mare can become your greatest strength. 

Wear your scars with pride, you owe it to yourself. 

My spiritual beliefs

I believe in God the Father, The creator of the world, universe and everything in it. Including the sun,moon,stars,air and water, plants, animals, fish, insects, reptiles,aliens, men and women and everything else I may have missed.
I believe there is only one God.
I believe God is omnipresent….. meaning He is everywhere and with everyone at the same time. God is never too busy to bother with us.
I believe God is omnipotent……meaning He can do anything He choses to do.
I believe God is omniscience……meaning He is able to know everything about  you including all the  thoughts you think and everything you feel,all about your life  etc..infinitely
I believe you can “know” God intimately.
I believe God can bring light to your life, even when it’s  dark.
I believe God can bring fullness to your life when it feels empty.
I believe God can bring joy to your life when you are sad.
I believe God has a son, His name is Jesus. I believe He is God that lived in human form.
I believe He lived as an example to us and that He died to show us God’s love for us.
I believe it was his choice to die for us. He didn’t have to. He could have called on the angels and they would have rushed to His side.
I believe He was crucified on a cross  because of people with unbelieving and cruel hearts that wanted Him dead because they didn’t want to hear the truth. His goodness caused them to feel bad about themselves so they decided to get rid of him so they didn’t have to look at themselves or change.
I believe He died to show us that our hearts and thoughts can be very wrong and that we need to turn from evil things. Things that are not good for our souls.
I believe He rose again on the third day.
I believe God cares deeply for us, even about the smallest detail.
I believe I would never want to live without God in my life.
I believe we should admit that we sin.
I believe we should admit that we need Jesus as our savior.
I believe God is merciful.
I believe God is powerful.
I believe God has great compassion.
I believe God has feelings. I believe He laughs and I believe He cries.
I believe I hear Him
I believe I see Him
I believe I smell His intoxicating fragrance like the rose of Sharon.
I believe we should forgive others as we want to be forgiven.
I believe God will be shaking things up in this world.
I believe God loves me.
I believe God loves you.
I believe I dance with Jesus.
I believe Jesus still lives today and that we can have a greater life because of Him.
I believe that you must except Jesus as your Lord and saviour.
I believe you must except Him in your heart and not your head.
I believe you must make a choice to love Him because of the love He showed us when He died for our sins.
I believe you can’t see the Father without knowing the son.
I believe you must ask God for forgiveness of sins.
I believe you should turn away from sin and try to live a pure and holy life as best as you can.
I believe we should not judge, that there is only one judge, and judge HE will.
I believe we should have a healthy fear of the Lord. The beginning of wisdom is fear of the Lord.
I believe we should trust God.
I believe there is a devil, his name is Satan, and his followers are demons,
I believe we must resist him.
I believe we should love our enemies because God says so.
I believe we must hate sin but love the sinner.
I believe we should ask God for wisdom and guidance.
I believe there are a lot of “if”s in God’s word.
I believe we should humble ourselves before God humbles us. It’s best that way!
I believe the devil comes to destroy, lie and steal anything and everything God has for us.
I believe we can see him at work in this world.
I believe God has already won the battle between them.
I believe he has lost and he is angry.
I believe you should hold on to grace ( God’s gift to us) It’s free and it’s great and we definitely need it!!!
I believe in God’s word, the bible
I believe Jesus is the word in human form
I believe Jesus was in the beginning of time, and is now and yet he’s still to come.
I believe the world as we know it, will end.
I believe life goes on.
I believe we will have a new body and a new earth and a new heaven.
I believe the sun will turn to blood and the sky will darken.
I believe there will be more earthquakes, famine and disasters before the end comes.
I believe the bible is true, even when I don’t understand it because I know God and I know He is always right, it doesn’t matter what I believe or think. I`m always wrong even though I may think I`m right and that`s fine with me.
I believe God comes first before husband or wife or children and if God comes first then  life should fall into place properly. I believe spouse should be next and then children. If parents are happy the children will be happy also. But all things in a Godly way.
I believe God gives us common sense and wants us to use it.
I believe that you must be born again in order to enter the kingdom of heaven. Born again is:
In Christianity, born again refers to a "spiritual rebirth" (regeneration) of the human soul or spirit, contrasted with the physical birth everyone experiences. The origin of the term "born again" is the New Testament: "Jesus replied, 'Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God without being born again.'"^{[Jn 3:3 TNIV][1]} It is a term associated with salvation in Christianity.
Throughout most of Christian history, to be "born again" was understood as spiritual regeneration via the sacrament of baptism by the power of water and word. This is still the understanding in Roman Catholicism, Anglicanism, Lutheranism and Eastern Orthodoxy. However, beginning sometime after the Reformation, being born again^[2] has been predominantly understood by some radical Protestants (of the "anabaptist" branch) to be an experience of conversion symbolized by water baptism, and rooted in a commitment to one's own personal faith in Jesus Christ for salvation. Following an interpretation of, for instance, Ezekiel 36:26,^[3] many believe that when a person accepts Jesus as the Messiah and receives the Holy Spirit, a radical "change of heart" occurs. This change is marked by an aversion to sin and a passion for obedience to the commandments of Jesus Christ, as outlined in the Christian scriptures. Many associate the term "born again" with the revelation of a new concept, or an experience of conversion, defined as mental assent to the acceptance of Jesus Christ as one's personal Saviour; though some believe that this experience or mental assent (See Gnosticism) is not alone sufficient to merit Christian salvation. Rather, in addition, this is brought about by repentance, the aforementioned "new birth" of the Holy Spirit, and faith in Jesus Christ's propitiation for sins.^[4]
I believe that there must be a change in your life and what comes out of your mouth.
I believe you must have a radical change of heart towards God and towards others.
I believe that there are people who believe that they are born again when they are not.
I believe that there will be people in heaven that you would think they wouldn’t be there.
I believe that there are people who are saved who don’t know that they are saved.
I believe it’s important how you walk with God.
I believe we should daily check ourselves on how we act or what we say.
I believe there is power in your words.
I believe through Jesus we can do things that we never thought possible
I believe in the Holy Spirit….. I believe it is part of God’s personality and is what God uses to draw us to Him.
I believe we can feel, see and smell His presence.
I believe we should be faithful
I believe you should have contact with other believers in a group or church meetings as this helps you to grow spiritually as God wants you to grow.
I believe God wants us to mature spiritually.
I believe churches or groups should be small to get the most out of them.
I believe we should be accountable to one another.
I believe we should confess our sins to one another.
I believe in the power of prayer.
I believe you can have God’s favor
I believe in speaking in tongues…. I believe it is our spirit connecting directly to His….. I believe it lifts us up and edifies us and strengthens us…… I believe it empowers us to a greater calling.
I believe we, the believers, are chosen and called.
I believe God calls everyone.
I believe God wants everyone to be saved.
I believe Jesus is the Christ. Christ means the anointed one.
In simple terms, the anointing is the presence of the Holy Spirit being smeared upon someone. It is the overflowing life of Jesus which imparts supernatural strength enabling an individual to perform a special task or function in an office he is called and appointed to.
In ancient times, God would anoint an individual to function effectively to a particular office. For example, He would choose a person and anoint him to stand in the office of a prophet. He would choose another and anoint him to stand in the office of a priest. He would choose still another one and anoint him to stand in the office of a king.
I believe God is love.
I believe God is powerful.
I believe you must have faith.
I believe all these things because God, my Father says so.