Saturday, December 3, 2011

Rotten apples

Have you ever been disappointed when you bite into a bright healthy looking shiny red apple only to find it’s rotten on the inside?

So disappointing, here you are ready to take a big bite out of this juicy apple and you are so hungry for it but  it’s rotten to the core!!! Ugh
It looked fine from the outside but on the inside, yak! What now? Do I throw it away or do I eat what I can from it?
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You can try putting it back together and it looks better but…………… It’s still rotten on the inside Sad smile
It’s so upsetting to have a rotten apple, but that’s life, there are a lot of rotten apples out there.
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If you look at it from a different angle, you can kind of imagine what it looked like before but it’s still not the same.

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Maybe if you turn it around….. maybe then it will be better….

It’s still rotten, it doesn’t matter what you do to it, you know it’s rotten.

It’s like when you meet someone and you get to know them and you think they are perfect. You just adore them… but all of a sudden you start seeing what’s inside them and they start to show their rotten center.
It’s so disappointing!  So what do you do? 
Once you see something rotten in a person it’s very hard not to keep seeing it. It doesn’t matter how you look at them, it always seems to be there, and here you are wishing that it wasn’t so and trying to see them the way they were before when you thought they were perfect. It’s very hard to have a different view of them but keep looking it will be ok, eventually you will see the good that’s in them too.
It depends on how rotten they are I think, whether or not you should keep them as friends. If they are totally rotten through and through, probably for your best interest it’s best to keep your distance from them as close friends. We don’t need to be around people that will always put you down in some way.  People that are that rotten can drag you down if they are around you too much but don’t forget that these people have things that they need to work on just like you and God can change anyone! He may be still working on that person or that person hasn’t opened themselves up for God to heal those parts in them.
We can’t forget that we all have some rotten spots here and there and we are not to judge the rotten apples but we don’t have to put up with the rottenness that comes out of them.
But if the spots aren’t too bad, eat around the spots!!! Winking smile

Sunday, November 27, 2011

a current dream

I'm standing on an embankment with about 10 to 12 other people close by and others that are farther away and we are watching the wicked current in the water where the water goes under the large bridge and leads into the river. There are people going by in the water and they look like they are dead,they just jumped in where the water was calmer and ended up in the current and I look at everyone that are watching them and they are just emotionless and I'm screaming at them, "how can you just stand there and do nothing!!???"  But no one reacts, they just keep watching it without concern or without thought to help them. It makes me feel so helpless and the thought crosses my mind that they think I should be like that too but I just can't. There is an urge inside of me telling me to do something, anything to try to help, it's better than standing there watching and getting ready to jump in. All of a sudden a lady holding up a baby that I know, passes by in front of us and she's almost drowning and she's saying help me but still no one reacts. I can't help it anymore, I have to do something!! I start going down the embankment trying to get to the slippery rocks and everyone is screaming at me," You're crazy!!! Don't go down there, You can't help them, leave them alone !!!" but without thinking about it I continue on and keep my eyes on that lady with the baby in her hands and the current is so bad that it isn't going in one direction but swirling viciously. It sends her back my way and with sure footing, knowing that I can do it but not caring if I can't, I step unto the slippery rocks and I bend over and grab a hold of her wrist and with all my strength I lift her and the baby out of the water. I bring them up on the embankment and when I put them down, they turn into cats, an adult cat and a kitten. They are dark grey in color and they are not doing well. They are not breathing so I give the kitten to my husband and tell him to resuscitate it while I look after the adult cat. I start pushing on it's stomach to pump the water out of the cat while I keep watch of my husband to make sure  he is doing  the same. Water starts coming out of their mouths and they start moving and I immediately start feeling guilty for having rescued them because they are suffering so and I think maybe they were better off drowning. I put them back in the water without thinking what I'm doing and then I think "What am I doing???, maybe they'll recover!!!" I grab them back out of the water and pull them back up. I wake up disturbed about this dream.

I pray and ask God for the interpretation.

There are people standing around not knowing what they are doing. They are watching the flow of the current in the world and even in the churches and wanting to go with it because it is easier. Not really questioning if it's what God wants or not. It's just where everyone is going and if everyone is going there it must be right, that is what they believe, and there is nothing you can do about it. so they jump in and they are dead but they think they are alive. The observers are seeing it but think they are helpless to do anything about it because the devil is too strong so they don't even try or even think about trying. Fear keeps them back and they deny their emotions because they think it is useless to have them as they believe emotions are not from God. They also think that maybe they should be doing the same because they are not trusting themselves to hear from God for themselves but believing what is being presented before them. They are deceived.
The observers don't want you to help anyone because it will be going against "the current" and that's wrong in their eyes. They think you are not right with God, or not hearing from God, but you see it so clearly that if they would just reach out, if they would just open their eyes and see what they are capable of and what is true, they could help someone too. If they would just be willing to go against "the current", to think for themselves, they could save lives and maybe calm the waters a bit.

When you pull someone out of the devil's hands they may suffer with the confusion from wanting to stay where they are comfortable or turning to God, but we shouldn't let go of them and send them back on their way but keep them by being there for them and praying them through, but even then it is their choice whether they go back in the current or go against it, but don't ever stop fighting for them.

God has shown me that when I dream of cats, they represent Him or His nature. So you see, someone may be in satan's hands but when you pull them out they can turn into His nature.

You may be afaid to jump out and take a chance on getting hurt but it's so important to do it and chances are someone may be on the embankment and may even try to trip you because they so believe you are doing wrong.  God says there is no greater love than just putting yourself out there, not thinking about your life but the life you are about to save. Stop fearing! or should I say, stop thinking about yourself so much and just concentrate on the person that is drowning. You have to let that urge take you, don't stop your emotions, God has given them to you for a reason. You may be wrong sometimes and that's ok. God doesn't love you less just because you do something wrong. He is proud of you for stepping out. He doesn't love you more because you do something right either, but do what you are called to do!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Is there sin in the churches???

I just have so much going through my mind I need to start blogging about it. I'm nobody special, I'm not a scholar or anything close to that but I do believe the holy spirit shows me things.  I'm just a common person with common problems that I need to sort out like everyone else. I don't claim to be perfect by far. I do sin but I try to do my best at not sinning and with what I know.  So I thought I'd start this blog to see if there is other people who go through what I go through or see what I see. I'm sure there are but I'm finding it hard to find them.
There are things that are not talked about in the church. It's all hush hush. I need to be real!!! So if you don't like controversial things, I would suggest you leave my page right now. I'm not here to be nice so don't expect niceness here, I'm not about niceness and I'm not about religion, I'm about truth so don't continue on if you can't take the truth. I love truth even if it hurts me right to the tip of my toes!  I'm ranting not teaching, or am I? I want to say what isn't being said. I'm tired of a lot of the things I see going on in the churches. With the different attitudes, lack of commitment, lack of compassion for other people, lack of repentance, indifference's, boredom, jealousies, unforgiveness, etc. etc. Oh I forgot the big one JUDGEMENT. Who are you to judge your brother? The bible says (and I'm NOT going to find the scripture for you where it says it, find your OWN scripture if you can't remember what the bible says)  that we are to judge the sin not the sinner but there is a lot of judging the sinner and a lot of looking down your nose at your brothers and sisters in Christ in the church and then you wonder why people aren't coming to church! HELLO!!! DO YOU HEAR ME??..... Why would anyone want to come to church??? I wonder why I go to church sometimes and I've been going to church for 14 years. We have to step it up and be who we are called to be. The lack of attendance, jealousies, backstabbing,boredom, etc. has to stop!! We don't want the only difference to be is that you can talk about Jesus there and I do believe that some of the sinners have more respect for Jesus than the people in the churches!!. Now I may be a bit dumb but you would think if Jesus is there amongst us it would be a bit different but it's not. So why is everyone acting like they are great???  Oh look at me, I'm so perfect, I have no sin, well none that I'll admit to anyway!! And if I do, I'll never repent of it, I'm saved by grace!!! It's pathetic. No wonder Jesus was happy to eat with sinners!!!
 The very nature of Jesus is based on Faith, grace and repentance. You can't have one without the others!  We are saved by faith when we believe through His grace by repenting of our sins. That means turning away from your sins. Does that only mean you only do that one time when you are first saved?? That is repent of your sins??  Well of course not, it's an on going thing!
  How often do you ask yourself if you are doing something that is grieving the holy spirit? Do you even care? I know I am preaching hard here but I believe there are a lot of people that need to hear some hard preaching! The sad thing is that if you read this far, you are probably not the one who needs it because the other ones already exited this page.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

disappearing toe

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I had a dream the other night, people were looking at my right foot that has been mangled in a car accident, it should be pretty obvious that I have problems with it as it is deformed but no one can see it but me. I’m exclaiming to the people looking at it.” Look can’t you see it!!!??”  “No we don’t see anything” is what they reply.The other toes are hiding the shorter toe. So with my hands I spread the toes on each side of the shorter toe and when I do that the shorter toe shrinks back into nothingness. It looks like it’s almost gone.  ….. “ Oh yeah ok, I think we see it now, yes it looks like there may be a problem ,” they say.


How bad does it have to be before you see there’s a problem? What about when they are gone? Will you see the problem when it’s too late? Sad smile

Monday, July 4, 2011

Roast beef for dummies!!! For dinner or supper

Way down here in Nova Scotia, Canada, we eat supper around 5:00 give or take….. I know in the states you guys eat Dinner. We all have different times we like to eat around the world but we probably have all the same problem. “What are we going to have for supper or dinner?”  I think that’s probably something everyone has problems with so it’s always nice to have new recipes. So I’m going to share some of my recipes. My daughter who lives in Alberta will probably appreciate these as she’s just starting out in her new home and would like Mom’s recipes step by step. And my son also lives away and would like to see mom’s recipes too.

Step 1.  Get a roast….. I prefer one with a bone as the meat is more tender.  A small roast will feed 2 or 3 people but you’ll need a bigger one for more people.

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Step 2. Get a roast pan…… a medium size roast pan should do the trick.
Step 3. Place the roast inside the pan and sprinkle about 1 1/2 tsp. of salt on top of the roast.
The roast may be frozen or thawed, it doesn’t matter as long as you can get the styro foam and plastic off or whatever it’s packaged with.
Step 4. Turn your oven on to 400 degree f. and preheat. That’s till the red light goes off!!
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Step 5. Place your roast and roast pan in the oven WITHOUT a cover for around 40 minutes to brown the top of your roast and give it some flavor.  You can turn it down before 40 minutes or leave it longer if it’s not brown enough. Check it!…..
Step 6. Take the roast pan out of the oven (don’t forget to use your mitts) ;>) 
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Step 7. Turn down your oven to 350 if you are cooking it for 4 hours. If you want to cook it longer, lets say 8 hours…. turn your oven down to 200 degrees!!!  NO HIGHER    so good when it’s slow cooked!!!
Step 8. Pour water into the roast pan. Cover with water to about 3/4’s the thickness of the roast and add about 1 1/2 tbsp.'s of salt into the water. Sprinkle with pepper to taste
Step 10. Rub garlic on top of the roast. You may use real garlic or garlic power or both if you like. You don’t have to put it on top of the roast you may put it in the water.
Step 11. Add about 4 or 5 half slices of bacon and cover the roast with it…. optional but good!
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TIP ----- smell your spices….. if you really like the smell of the spice use 1 to 2 tsps.…. if you don’t like it at all… don’t use it….. if you think it’s ok…. use only 1/2 tsp.!…
Add about 2 tsps. of onion powder, about 1 tsp. of ground basil or sweet basil. about 1/2 tsp. of savory. about 1 tsp. of fines herbes. about 1/2 tsp. thyme.
I also add about 2 tsps. of Bovril which is a bouillon concentrate for beef.
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Step 12. Peel and cut in half 2 onions and place in water of the roast.
Step 13. Place pan back into the oven and continue cooking for 4 hours at 350 degrees f.  or at 200 degrees f. for 8 hours.  You will need to check the water level from time to time. If the water goes down too low you can add a bit of water to it. As long as you have a few cups of water left it should do the trick.
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Step 14. Take out of the oven when done.  Place your roast on a plate or platter. Roast will be very tender and may fall apart.  Strain the water with a strainer to make gravy.
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Step 15. Pour the strained water from the gravy into a small to medium sized pot or strain right on top of your pot.
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Step 16. In a small bowl add 3 heaping tbsps. of cornstarch. Add enough water to wet the cornstarch and that it’s not too “hard” . You have to mix it until it softens without putting too much water in it. Should be the consistency of cream. Should feel just a bit of resistance when you mix it with the spoon.
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Step 17. Heat your gravy on medium high heat till it starts steaming a bit and then slowly start adding your cornstarch while stirring the gravy. It may take a few minutes before it starts to thicken. You may add more cornstarch if 3 tbsps. isn’t enough. Just use the same consistency if you only use 1 more heaping tbsp. of cornstarch. Just enough water to mix it well.
Step 18. I add stuff to make my gravy browner when I make roast. It’s called Kitchen bouquet. It's not necessary but it does add a bit of flavor and looks better as a darker gravy.
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Step 19. Give thanks for your meal and ask God to bless it. Serve with mashed potatoes and veggies. Enjoy your meal!!!
Making a roast is  trial and error, so don’t give up if it doesn’t work the greatest the first time…… The weather effects how it will come out so don’t be afraid to check on it from time to time.  Usually rainy days your roast will dry out really fast!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011